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Friday, April 02, 2004
Oh fuck it. Just FUCK IT.
Why why why why why why would someone have to not call me as promised THREE times in 24 hours? WHY?
I just hate it.
I've about had it with being second best anyway. Why should I be happy? If someone tells me they will call, they should. I shouldn't be anxietised by them never returning my calls or whatever.
So today I had had it. After running through a hundred ultimata in my head, I sat down at the PC. And proceeded to clock some hardcore porn mileage on a road I had never travelled down before. Never once seen a hardcore video. Never.
I know I'm using repitition too much and I know I do not like where I am going in this relationship with porn. And my girlfriend.
I'm tired and frustrated, and I just want her to come over and to cuddle me and holdme until i'm done crying, and then we can make love to the tune of the von bondies, which will unfortunately last only half an hour before silence, and then a further five minutes before the blood-curdling chorus shoots my load for me.
I'm cold and I feel as if a fever is coming on, so I will go and get a drink and hope that maybe I can sort my girl out.
Why why why why why why would someone have to not call me as promised THREE times in 24 hours? WHY?
I just hate it.
I've about had it with being second best anyway. Why should I be happy? If someone tells me they will call, they should. I shouldn't be anxietised by them never returning my calls or whatever.
So today I had had it. After running through a hundred ultimata in my head, I sat down at the PC. And proceeded to clock some hardcore porn mileage on a road I had never travelled down before. Never once seen a hardcore video. Never.
I know I'm using repitition too much and I know I do not like where I am going in this relationship with porn. And my girlfriend.
I'm tired and frustrated, and I just want her to come over and to cuddle me and holdme until i'm done crying, and then we can make love to the tune of the von bondies, which will unfortunately last only half an hour before silence, and then a further five minutes before the blood-curdling chorus shoots my load for me.
I'm cold and I feel as if a fever is coming on, so I will go and get a drink and hope that maybe I can sort my girl out.
